Sunday, October 19, 2014


Caution: This blog is TMI and not suitable for younger readers.  You have been warned.

Going to the Doctor is NEVER a fun thing.  They don't have a magic wand to make it instantly better, and there is no crystal ball that they can look inside to see what is going on without being invasive.  You just want an answer, you don't want them to conduct a ton of test and still not know what the hell is going on with you.  I, like many, want an EASY fix.. this is not the case!

Something has been off with my cycles, sometimes I miss "my time", sometimes I go a long time between "times", NEVER have I had my "times" come frequently... until about June of this year.  I had my 1st double "time" in June of this year.  I had "my time" the 30th of May until till the 3rd of June and then again the last week in June.  July was okay but very light... August and September I have had double "time."  

So, I was talking to a good friend that had trouble having kids for some advice, told her what had been going on, and asked what I should do.  After some talk, she said that I should make a doctor's appointment.  I did.  But, I was not ready for what was going to be said at the doctor's office.

Dr. N, my new doctor, who is an older lady with a British accent asked if Dr. R. had talked to me about having Polycystic Ovary Syndrome...

Allow the crickets to chirp... my eyes to grow big... my hubby to look at my with questions in his eyes.. and me to exclaim "What??"  To which Dr. N, says "Do you know what it is?"  Again with the crickets.  No I don't know what that is.  Now I have to do some research.  Dr. N. was kind enough to explain it to me, then she asked me to go into more detail about my "time" history if I could remember.  She asked me if Dr. had put my on birth control, as this could help you make cycles more normal...No.  Dr. N. said "Dr. R didn't tell you that you might have this?"  No!!  After much talk she asked me what I would like to do next, to be honest I don't know.  Dr. N asked if I had researched Clomid?  I have, plus working in the pharmacy I know some of how it works.  I know that it greatly increases the chances of twins, while not always, but there should never be more than just twins.  They do not know the long term effects of this and uterine cancer as this is a newer drug and women are not on it for long amounts of time.  Dr. N said that she wanted to do another blood test..

Again with the crickets...  You wanna take my blood again???  Haven't I had enough of this?  Okay, Ill do it.  Oh wait there's a catch.. you have to wait until you start again.  Oh and the reason that we are doing this is because Dr. R did all the tests but one.  (Thanks Dr. R. I appreciate you so Much! Um NOT!!)

And now I have to wait...I am going to be doing more research, and trying to do the normal thing.  But damn it this is not easy.  

By the way the Mayo Clinic defines Polycystic Ovary Syndrome as:
Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) is a common endocrine system disorder among women of reproductive age. Women with PCOS may have enlarged ovaries that contain small collections of fluid — called follicles — located in each ovary as seen during an ultrasound exam.
Infrequent or prolonged menstrual periods, excess hair growth, acne, and obesity can all occur in women with polycystic ovary syndrome. In adolescents, infrequent or absent menstruation may raise suspicion for the condition.
The exact cause of polycystic ovary syndrome is unknown. Early diagnosis and treatment along with weight loss may reduce the risk of long-term complications, such as type 2 diabetes and heart disease.
I am a little scared about the heart disease.  Losing weight is not a big deal.  But would I be considered early diagnosis?  I don't think so, considering I am almost 30.  I pray that I don't have this, but then I pray that I do because I have a diagnosis and then I can be treated.

I can get pregnant, it just takes a lot more work.  I just pray that something can be done.  I pray that we will be able to at least of one child.  We would like one of our own children.  Please make sure that you are thankful for your babies, that if you got pregnant easy and that it was all easy, that you are thankful.  That you say a word of thanks to whoever you believe in and however you believe.  That if your baby was healthy, meaning came out crying, alive, 10 fingers and 10 toes..then be thankful.

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

What really grinds my gears....


I'm Crystal, I'm a republican, I'm going to offend you, you might want to stop reading now.  If you disagree with what I am going to say, in this state in my life you can do 2 things: Stop reading and Delete me!

I HATE election years.  Not just Presidential election years, I hate any type of election.  I have hated them since the 2006 election.  Why?!?!? Because every year I hear the same thing on my TV: "Conservatives want to reverse Roe vs. Wade."......................................

Is that really all you have???  Is that really something that we are talking about right now?  

F.U.C.K I.T.

Right now at this point in time that really pisses me off!  Like to no end.  Thank you lady on TV for reminding me again that some woman out there, not only was able to get pregnant, but then said woman can go out and end that pregnancy.  Thank you.  I really appreciate you!  I also really hate you.  Honestly, I have pure hate for you!  I understand that there are medical reason, I understand you were rapped.  

You were a fool and didn't wrap your tool, too bad for you, adoption.
You have too many kids already? Adoption

I don't think that this will ever be overturned.  I am so sick over hearing this over and over.  Right now, I just want to know hear about this.  Right now I don't want to to be your friend or anything of that nature, if you are okay with this. Im not going to get over this!