Friday, November 14, 2014

Blogging before my appointment

What a couple of weeks it has been, I feel like I have been riding an emotional roller coaster and I can't get off when it stops at the station.  I'm not nervous about my appointment today, but I feel like I am not going to get an answer.  I also have been having the same dream for about two weeks now, and I wake up in tears, if not in tears, then taking a deep breath like, I have been holding it.  I know that my dream will not be true, I know that I cannot be that lucky.

I'm not sure if I want to tell you about my dream, it is a baby dream, but I don't want to share.  I had a great blog planned out, i wasn't going to talk about babies, just life... oh well.

Oh my gosh as I am watching this, I am watching "Gilmore Girls" where Sookie has a baby... UG!

Okay I need a new topic...

So I am sitting in my house looking at my Halloween decorations, that i am allowed to keep up until Christmas.  As I am looking, I don't want to change my decorations. But, I know that I will.  I don't want to change them because it is so pretty in here to me.  But, all good things must end.  Unless you have a Boxer, than good things never come to an end!

I was supposed to go to a Child care center today, and I was also supposed to stop by the office.  I really don't want to do either.  I am conflicted as to what to do.  My job is now offering a case that it 4 days a week for 6 hours, however... it's with an adult.  I don't have the greatest track record with these things.  I don't feel for these parents.  I try and I try, but I just don't have any sympathy.  I am still in shock at the outcome of a court case this week.  First of all, they lied, second of all, really???  I just can't get it.  It's bothering me more than I should, and I just can't let it go.  I think that families in most cases should be reunited, however I don't know that this was the best thing....

Okay, I am out of ideas for the blog for today.  I have my blood work at 4pm.  I am hoping that this is the last, before all the baby blood work that is needed.  I also hope for some answers.  If you are the praying type please pray.  If you are the sending ju-ju type please do.  And if you just want to send some happy thoughts, I'll take those too!


  1. Praying for you! And don't doubt your dreams. You'll be a mommy!!!

  2. I am sending lots of prayers! Don't let one small thing get in the way of your dreams! it's all going to work out! just have faith!! =D

  3. Thank you so much!! Both of you! :D