What a couple of weeks it has been, I feel like I have been riding an emotional roller coaster and I can't get off when it stops at the station. I'm not nervous about my appointment today, but I feel like I am not going to get an answer. I also have been having the same dream for about two weeks now, and I wake up in tears, if not in tears, then taking a deep breath like, I have been holding it. I know that my dream will not be true, I know that I cannot be that lucky.
I'm not sure if I want to tell you about my dream, it is a baby dream, but I don't want to share. I had a great blog planned out, i wasn't going to talk about babies, just life... oh well.
Oh my gosh as I am watching this, I am watching "Gilmore Girls" where Sookie has a baby... UG!
Okay I need a new topic...
So I am sitting in my house looking at my Halloween decorations, that i am allowed to keep up until Christmas. As I am looking, I don't want to change my decorations. But, I know that I will. I don't want to change them because it is so pretty in here to me. But, all good things must end. Unless you have a Boxer, than good things never come to an end!
I was supposed to go to a Child care center today, and I was also supposed to stop by the office. I really don't want to do either. I am conflicted as to what to do. My job is now offering a case that it 4 days a week for 6 hours, however... it's with an adult. I don't have the greatest track record with these things. I don't feel for these parents. I try and I try, but I just don't have any sympathy. I am still in shock at the outcome of a court case this week. First of all, they lied, second of all, really??? I just can't get it. It's bothering me more than I should, and I just can't let it go. I think that families in most cases should be reunited, however I don't know that this was the best thing....
Okay, I am out of ideas for the blog for today. I have my blood work at 4pm. I am hoping that this is the last, before all the baby blood work that is needed. I also hope for some answers. If you are the praying type please pray. If you are the sending ju-ju type please do. And if you just want to send some happy thoughts, I'll take those too!