Another year has come and gone, (if you are counting for months wise we are almost out of the running to have a baby in 2015 too.) and the holidays are now over. I have never been so thankful to see Christmas come and go, mainly go. I was not in the spirit for it this year. I didn't have lots of money, and I didn't have a little person so it made them so not fun.
Have you ever thought about what life would be like when you neared 30? I'm sure that you have. I am sure that it looked a lot different that you imagined it. I am sure that you dream it differently. I for one have dreamed it much different. Some of it is the same, but some of it is not.
What's the same... Married, Puppies, house, car, freinds.
Career: I thought that I would be a teacher by now. As my current career move will allow me to do so, I am no longer so far off. How far can this job take me? Im not sure. But I am willing to go as far as I need to.
Where I live: So I dreamed that I would live some place where we get a lot of snow. I love snow. I love the beach. So I guess that VA is an okay place to be because we have snow, I'd just like some more.
Babies: Yep, thought that I would have at least one by now. And I really thought that this entire process would be easier. In being a human pin cushion I am able to get a blood draw on my own, without the hubby. I no longer have as much anxiety about going to the dr, because I pretty much know that when I go there they are going to stick me.
I just wish that I had an answer. I feel like this is taking too much time. I understand that I have this process that I have to follow, but honestly I don't know how much more of this "process" I can take. The result is the same. If this time doesn't work guess what I get?? More testing.... oh and the hubby gets to go get some testing done. This is insane. I am going crazy. I try so hard not to think about it every waking second. There are so many people pregnant at my daycare that I am wishing that there is something in the water. I try not to give them weird glances. And I am with kids all day so that is hard. Honestly I just want another dog. I know that I can have that, and I don't have to try and be tested and pray that it will work. I can just find one and love it and squeeze it.
Yeah it is just hard. Wish me some more luck. And here is to turing 30!