There are many things that I cannot change... things that are beyond my control. I really like to be in control, not necessarily controlling the situation, I just like to be behind the scenes calling the shots.
2 years ago when I started this journey, before everyone knew, I really thought that there would be a much different outcome. And even though I don't want to be, I am sitting on the edge of making the decision that things will not turn out differently. I put my faith in prayer, I have said a prayer for it every night, and every time it is the same. In 2 years I have been through a lot.
I'm not really sure what I am looking for anymore, I don't feel like there is an answer anywhere. I am so hopeful for this new doctor, but am I setting my hopes too high?
2 weeks... How long is that to you? If every second mattered, than a week is etrinity. 2 weeks is how long my old doctor's office had Hubby's results without letting me know. I called them, they said oh we will call back... 2 weeks... you had them for two weeks. And when I do get the results you can't even give me a number? Saying that is something that a urologist is going to have to go over with you. How do I even know if I want to go there if I don't have a number? How do I know that this is going to work if you are now saying that you don't want me to have my test done too? Why are you doing this to me? I called there again to have my records faxed to another doctor's office... oh you need to sign a paper.... slince.... okay thanks for calling... goodbye... I mean can I come in and do that today???
I really believe that once I am no longer a patient at BLUE RIDGE OBGYN IN CULPEPER, that I will have a big weight lifted off my chest. I am on a mission now, more than ever to find a better doctor, one that is going to give me results and answers.
I recently went down and ugly turn. I know this is going to sound horrible, but I told the Hubby that I wish, that I would have had a miscarriage... Because in that doctor's office they only care about you if you have lost a baby, if you are pregnant, or if you need to have your who-ha looked at. I am just another 30 something who wants a baby, and seems fine for all that they can see, so they are not trying to rush anything. Who cares if I have been at this for 2 years... they had results for 2 weeks... Who cares if I have to play phone tag with them all the time... they will call me back when they want to....
Now who cares if I bad mouth them every chance I get? If I take to social media and internet surveys and ratings to bash the shit out of them?? Will they care then? It will be too late if they care then. I will be gone, and I will continue my mission to slam them every chance I get. So, if you are in the Culpeper area, DO NOT use BLUE RIDGE OBGYN, you will thank me. Trust me on this!!!