Sunday, June 5, 2016

Crystal's cooking in the kitchen...

I'm sure that there are much harder things in life than this diet that I have put myself on in order for I.V.F success.  But, this does take the cake.  First there is looking at every label the things that you put in your mouth.  Which can do 2 things when you are at the grocery store: 1. Is very time consuming, and 2: means that you buy a lot less than what you had set out to buy.  Mind you all I want to do right now is eat beef jerky/slim jims, cheese, and drink a slurpee, but I yet to do any of those.  I'd also like a big bowl of broccoli cheese soup, which I should have had before I started all this.  (Damn it).

I have decided that I am going to have to go to pinterest and google and find some other things to eat.  In starting this diet I have made myself sick twice now.  (Today was the worst and I haven't been able to really get off the couch).  As funny as it sounds I don't think that I am eating enough.  Because, I am just trying to stick with this.  And I am really already tired of eating chicken and fruit.  I need some fish and other things in my diet, but because I was on such a hunt for other things that didn't have gluten, I forgot to stop by the meat section of the store.  

What's really funny is how people act when you cannot have something.  I was at the local bbq joint in my town, and they put my favorite thing back on the menu, which happens to be nachos (I LOVE NACHOS.)  So, when I got up to the counter I asked for them without cheese.  The lady was so shocked, she was like what, why?  So, I had to explain that I can't have cheese.  Which is the part of the diet that I have 100% for sure stayed away from, even though I really don't want to.  So then she had to tell the cook to make sure that he knew that she didn't type it in wrong.  It was funny.

But sometimes it isn't so funny.  Such as when you are at a party and someone says yummy veggies and ranch, and you explain that you can't have the ranch, cause you can't have dairy.  And they keep asking why.  Sometimes I don't want to wear the I.V.F/infertility label on my forehead.  Sometimes, I just want to be out and feel a since of this is not happening to me.  I know that some people will say, "But you chose to be public, so what is the big deal?"  But, I do meet new people, and they have no idea what is going on with me unless I say something.  

Another example:  I work at a bank.  Many people come in a out, man people love to talk to me.  I don't mind starting up conversations with people.  However, one of the lovely ladies from the doctor's office in town let me know that we have another pregnant girl in our office and that I better watch.  I tried to respond in a good way, I think that I did.  I told her that I wouldn't mind.  And she was like are you ready?  I had to explain that I had/have been ready for a while, and then she asked well then why aren't you pregnant?  Then I had to explain the entire I.V.F thing.  Darn it.  I thought that maybe I could at least avoid it at work.  

I would love to eat a cheeseburger and cal it a day.  But I cannot do that.  I will not do that.  I will keep going!  Love and Baby dust.

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